its quite evident what too much of waiting at home leads to = desperation. a state where you dont know what to do except be rude to everything around and vent out anger to the silliest and most unwanted reasons.
some of my good friends who are kinda , what do you say, intellectually brilliant, also started hinting that im kinda useless and the recession has nothing to do with my current situation. it did hurt me, especially because these things happened during my Desperation period:) and because these are my good friends. then there was a time when i used to hardly speak at home. i didnt know what to speak infact.
but like i said i wanted to see the dark knight. my father mostly talks to my bro, maybe because hes a more joyfull character unlike me :) so there was a time when he was pissed with him but yet during that time he called for his help. since my bro is stubborn n pissed, he was bitching in a different room. i thought by volunteering i'll do them both a favour as i also wanted to start talking :) so i went to help and also using the chance i could ask him whether i could go for the movie. but he got pissed at me and i was like what did i do...???
looks like i needed to talk more and be more jolly in house. maybe then it would have been a better scenario. i have always wondered how my bro has always stayed so happy..?? now even in public my pop says that i kinda simply did engineering and my bro will succeed through hook or crook...:) meaning to say, hes smarter. and i have no doubt that he'll succeed :) well to defend myself i cant tell anything now because i kinda dont have success since the past 5 years or so. :) so now i dont believe in doing good anymore or what people say. i have lost hope.
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