months passby... even though a certain company has taken me, i go for other interviews hoping to get better offer or at this point atleast a job :) but in the interviews im bombarded with the questions such as DO U HAVE A DRIVING LICENSE. and like usual i say im in the process of getting it. and second question is, do you have any experience in anything, where again i struggle to satisfy the HR people. its kinda a difficult situation for freshers. but how can freshers get experience if no company wants to take them ???
and by this time i have already started forgetting whatever little i had learned in college. anyways as i said all these companies gave equal hopes and asked me to wait. well the main problem in waiting is that i have to see my family's face which makes me realise how pathetic i actually am. the once proud parents are now ashamed, well i cant possibly blame them, they have done everything they could possibly do and like they say its bcox of my pops money that i have a degree with me. i had failed them in college. the first time i ever failed, they were all supportive. then when it kinda repeated, they had lost hopes on me. which was quite evident through the various telephone conversations. then there was a time when they had just asked me to clear all papers and TRY and get out with my batch. even i began to think whether i was so pathetic??
this is what happens when the idle mind works you see. :) you kinda look into the past. i started recollecting what every1 around me had said when i had first failed. all my friends were like how stupid are you?? and like always i normally dont have words to give it back to them. i normally like my actions to do the talking but guess what, my actions never spoke throughout college days. and when i did get a good score, i had no1 to talk to, as it was in the final semester :) i dont think it would have made much difference, as even my close ones never had any expressions on my score. tht moment i felt like, what was the point of "trying to make a point":) guess i was so ashamed of myself that i had a very low profile in college. now you can see the devil has worked his way through me. but there were some moments in college that i'll cherish throughout my life. but as a whole i would love to forget that i have been to a college. all that i wanted to do was to make my family proud and live up to their expectations. but trying to do so i forgot how to enjoy n feel happy.
but i still Wait for something good to happen and bring happiness all around me. :)
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