Before writing this piece, I thought what’s the big deal. Immediately thereafter the significance impressed me to jot this down. A license to drive on the roads of this country is indeed fascinating. And, it’s worth it’s while. Out just from the college, as they say, obtaining a driving license in this country is considered like a second degree. My training period wasn’t like what others said it would be. In fact, my instructor was very good; thus half the hassle was over at the start itself. Most of the mistakes you make, while training, arise out of tension and fear. The instructor won’t spare you from scolding. In my case, though the instructor kept on saying that my driving is good, it was mostly my tension that used to get on to his nerves. Even after a month’s continuous training, he used to find errors (obviously silly to me). Then, it is his job, that was my consolation at least. Everyone you come across say that to get a license in the first shot is something next to impossible. Some get tensed with such comments. It actually had the converse effect on me. The notion of hardly anyone getting it in the first attempt was registered at the back of my mind. So be it.
On the test day, people around you ask you to “chill and be tension-free”. They do not realize that these very statements create a situation of butterflies in the stomach. Before the start of the test, I prayed and greeted the inspector with “good morning”. Then, it was my turn to show my skills. Once over, the test seemed to me like careful scrutiny of every breadth that I took in. The inspector gave me a smile and said “YOU PASS”. I was ecstatic and wanted to scream out loud; instead just wished the inspector “Shukran Zaidi” and shook hands. It was a dream come true. Nothing is impossible, even a driving license in the gulf at the first attempt is possible. Nonetheless, failure should be taken positively as practice makes perfect.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Friday, January 23, 2009
a cherished moment
i had once gone to drop a friend at the railway station. to reach the station we had to take a bus. it would take approximately 45 minutes to an hour to reach the station. i had got a seat on the bus which is quite rare during that hour of the day.
so after 15 minutes i see this old man struggling to stand and he might have been standing there much before i got into the bus. i got up and asked him to sit. obviously he thought that i was going to get down at the next stop. but my stop was last. it felt great to help him out. stops went-by and then before one certain stop, someone patted me on the shoulder and asked me to sit down and also said thanks. it was the same old man. i dont know how others would have felt at such a moment but such small things make my day.
so after 15 minutes i see this old man struggling to stand and he might have been standing there much before i got into the bus. i got up and asked him to sit. obviously he thought that i was going to get down at the next stop. but my stop was last. it felt great to help him out. stops went-by and then before one certain stop, someone patted me on the shoulder and asked me to sit down and also said thanks. it was the same old man. i dont know how others would have felt at such a moment but such small things make my day.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
chapter 5 : pursuit of happiness :)
in this phase of my life i feel i have matured more. and i no longer give a hang for unwanted things. since people dont expect anything from me anymore, the burden of expectations is off me :) n since i have lost all my reputation ( that's if i ever had that ) im kinda a freebird now. i dont hope for good things to happen. when it has to happen it'll happen. from here on i do things what i want to do and i dont care what people think of me anymore, because i have realised, that people dont actually care about anything except themselves.
here after i'll just be in the pursuit of happiness because a person is never happy. and try to leave my past as past itself. this particular blog is just to remind me that i had such a phase in life.( not that i'll forget it ) but someday in life i'll be successful, that time, i wanna look at this and lol :)
here after i'll just be in the pursuit of happiness because a person is never happy. and try to leave my past as past itself. this particular blog is just to remind me that i had such a phase in life.( not that i'll forget it ) but someday in life i'll be successful, that time, i wanna look at this and lol :)
Thursday, January 15, 2009
chapter 4 : desperation
its quite evident what too much of waiting at home leads to = desperation. a state where you dont know what to do except be rude to everything around and vent out anger to the silliest and most unwanted reasons.
some of my good friends who are kinda , what do you say, intellectually brilliant, also started hinting that im kinda useless and the recession has nothing to do with my current situation. it did hurt me, especially because these things happened during my Desperation period:) and because these are my good friends. then there was a time when i used to hardly speak at home. i didnt know what to speak infact.
but like i said i wanted to see the dark knight. my father mostly talks to my bro, maybe because hes a more joyfull character unlike me :) so there was a time when he was pissed with him but yet during that time he called for his help. since my bro is stubborn n pissed, he was bitching in a different room. i thought by volunteering i'll do them both a favour as i also wanted to start talking :) so i went to help and also using the chance i could ask him whether i could go for the movie. but he got pissed at me and i was like what did i do...???
looks like i needed to talk more and be more jolly in house. maybe then it would have been a better scenario. i have always wondered how my bro has always stayed so happy..?? now even in public my pop says that i kinda simply did engineering and my bro will succeed through hook or crook...:) meaning to say, hes smarter. and i have no doubt that he'll succeed :) well to defend myself i cant tell anything now because i kinda dont have success since the past 5 years or so. :) so now i dont believe in doing good anymore or what people say. i have lost hope.
some of my good friends who are kinda , what do you say, intellectually brilliant, also started hinting that im kinda useless and the recession has nothing to do with my current situation. it did hurt me, especially because these things happened during my Desperation period:) and because these are my good friends. then there was a time when i used to hardly speak at home. i didnt know what to speak infact.
but like i said i wanted to see the dark knight. my father mostly talks to my bro, maybe because hes a more joyfull character unlike me :) so there was a time when he was pissed with him but yet during that time he called for his help. since my bro is stubborn n pissed, he was bitching in a different room. i thought by volunteering i'll do them both a favour as i also wanted to start talking :) so i went to help and also using the chance i could ask him whether i could go for the movie. but he got pissed at me and i was like what did i do...???
looks like i needed to talk more and be more jolly in house. maybe then it would have been a better scenario. i have always wondered how my bro has always stayed so happy..?? now even in public my pop says that i kinda simply did engineering and my bro will succeed through hook or crook...:) meaning to say, hes smarter. and i have no doubt that he'll succeed :) well to defend myself i cant tell anything now because i kinda dont have success since the past 5 years or so. :) so now i dont believe in doing good anymore or what people say. i have lost hope.
chapter 3 : more waiting
months passby... even though a certain company has taken me, i go for other interviews hoping to get better offer or at this point atleast a job :) but in the interviews im bombarded with the questions such as DO U HAVE A DRIVING LICENSE. and like usual i say im in the process of getting it. and second question is, do you have any experience in anything, where again i struggle to satisfy the HR people. its kinda a difficult situation for freshers. but how can freshers get experience if no company wants to take them ???
and by this time i have already started forgetting whatever little i had learned in college. anyways as i said all these companies gave equal hopes and asked me to wait. well the main problem in waiting is that i have to see my family's face which makes me realise how pathetic i actually am. the once proud parents are now ashamed, well i cant possibly blame them, they have done everything they could possibly do and like they say its bcox of my pops money that i have a degree with me. i had failed them in college. the first time i ever failed, they were all supportive. then when it kinda repeated, they had lost hopes on me. which was quite evident through the various telephone conversations. then there was a time when they had just asked me to clear all papers and TRY and get out with my batch. even i began to think whether i was so pathetic??
this is what happens when the idle mind works you see. :) you kinda look into the past. i started recollecting what every1 around me had said when i had first failed. all my friends were like how stupid are you?? and like always i normally dont have words to give it back to them. i normally like my actions to do the talking but guess what, my actions never spoke throughout college days. and when i did get a good score, i had no1 to talk to, as it was in the final semester :) i dont think it would have made much difference, as even my close ones never had any expressions on my score. tht moment i felt like, what was the point of "trying to make a point":) guess i was so ashamed of myself that i had a very low profile in college. now you can see the devil has worked his way through me. but there were some moments in college that i'll cherish throughout my life. but as a whole i would love to forget that i have been to a college. all that i wanted to do was to make my family proud and live up to their expectations. but trying to do so i forgot how to enjoy n feel happy.
but i still Wait for something good to happen and bring happiness all around me. :)
and by this time i have already started forgetting whatever little i had learned in college. anyways as i said all these companies gave equal hopes and asked me to wait. well the main problem in waiting is that i have to see my family's face which makes me realise how pathetic i actually am. the once proud parents are now ashamed, well i cant possibly blame them, they have done everything they could possibly do and like they say its bcox of my pops money that i have a degree with me. i had failed them in college. the first time i ever failed, they were all supportive. then when it kinda repeated, they had lost hopes on me. which was quite evident through the various telephone conversations. then there was a time when they had just asked me to clear all papers and TRY and get out with my batch. even i began to think whether i was so pathetic??
this is what happens when the idle mind works you see. :) you kinda look into the past. i started recollecting what every1 around me had said when i had first failed. all my friends were like how stupid are you?? and like always i normally dont have words to give it back to them. i normally like my actions to do the talking but guess what, my actions never spoke throughout college days. and when i did get a good score, i had no1 to talk to, as it was in the final semester :) i dont think it would have made much difference, as even my close ones never had any expressions on my score. tht moment i felt like, what was the point of "trying to make a point":) guess i was so ashamed of myself that i had a very low profile in college. now you can see the devil has worked his way through me. but there were some moments in college that i'll cherish throughout my life. but as a whole i would love to forget that i have been to a college. all that i wanted to do was to make my family proud and live up to their expectations. but trying to do so i forgot how to enjoy n feel happy.
but i still Wait for something good to happen and bring happiness all around me. :)
chapter 2 : wait
when i was on the verge of giving up on hope, then, through the so called contacts of mine i came to know that certain good companies are hunting for people. and so the hope rises and till now none of the interviews i have attended, people have rejected me. so again i was confident n the interview goes well as expected though, i feel it was through contacts that i had got to the interview in the first place.
then they ask me to Wait for the results and that they would contact me if i was selected to next or to the comapny itself. so i Wait for days. n then a call of "raising hope" comes and im informed that i have been selected to the company. yahoo. i thought finally everything is in its place. :) ( u would have noted the past tense ) :) , then when i callup to the firm, i get replies that it'll take atleast few days or maybe 2 weeks to get the documents done and visa is also a problem. Mind you all this time im sitting at home. k so i wait as the company is pretty decent when in comparison with the country.
and during this wait i had wanted to go for many movies as im a total movie buff, but had taken an oath i wouldnt spend pop's money anymore. but then i hear dark knight was on gonna come soon in theatres and it was a tempt :) but i decided to delay it thinking that my first salary is just within days...
then they ask me to Wait for the results and that they would contact me if i was selected to next or to the comapny itself. so i Wait for days. n then a call of "raising hope" comes and im informed that i have been selected to the company. yahoo. i thought finally everything is in its place. :) ( u would have noted the past tense ) :) , then when i callup to the firm, i get replies that it'll take atleast few days or maybe 2 weeks to get the documents done and visa is also a problem. Mind you all this time im sitting at home. k so i wait as the company is pretty decent when in comparison with the country.
and during this wait i had wanted to go for many movies as im a total movie buff, but had taken an oath i wouldnt spend pop's money anymore. but then i hear dark knight was on gonna come soon in theatres and it was a tempt :) but i decided to delay it thinking that my first salary is just within days...
Monday, January 12, 2009
CHAPTERS OF PATIENCE chapter 1 : hope
most people look up to the word hope when all hopes are lost or when they are in desperate need of something. how ironical does that sound. i have joined the clan of blogsters (blogger sounds weird to my ears) since i dnt wanna forget this particular phase in my life.
this phase of my life is, hoping to get a good job. getting placed into a decent company from college is all what i had wanted when i was in college. and i did get it, only to wait for the date of joining to arrive after 2 years. oh by the way im still waiting for that one. so after college i leave the country in search of better prospects and to a known land Hoping things will work out there as all my wellwishers said tht there are good opportunities.
im here in the midst of a recession named sister to the GREAT DEPRESSION, hunting for a job and still hoping to get one in my field of engineering. after many positive interviews and employers'comments such as "hope to see u with our company soon" , i was still waiting for tht one very fateful phone call which would have put a stop to the Hoping period. :) on the other hand i get info on how easily others(my same year passouts n who are at par with me in studies) are getting placed with a payscale thts often beyond my imagination, though there are contacts involved. but still i hope that good things do happen to good people. ( not saying im good but i have never done any harm intentionally to any1 ) .
i have always felt that new things are tried out with my batch. in college it was the first year that they admitted students through aieee ( more number of students inducted into the college from all over the country, rather than being state-wise which was followed for years, through an examination ). but when i said this to my colleagues they said coincidence. now this recession also with our batch , when we have jus passed out and begunu working, makes me wonder whether, everything happens just as coincidence :)
then there came a time when i had thought that this hope was a hope against hope hopen :)
this phase of my life is, hoping to get a good job. getting placed into a decent company from college is all what i had wanted when i was in college. and i did get it, only to wait for the date of joining to arrive after 2 years. oh by the way im still waiting for that one. so after college i leave the country in search of better prospects and to a known land Hoping things will work out there as all my wellwishers said tht there are good opportunities.
im here in the midst of a recession named sister to the GREAT DEPRESSION, hunting for a job and still hoping to get one in my field of engineering. after many positive interviews and employers'comments such as "hope to see u with our company soon" , i was still waiting for tht one very fateful phone call which would have put a stop to the Hoping period. :) on the other hand i get info on how easily others(my same year passouts n who are at par with me in studies) are getting placed with a payscale thts often beyond my imagination, though there are contacts involved. but still i hope that good things do happen to good people. ( not saying im good but i have never done any harm intentionally to any1 ) .
i have always felt that new things are tried out with my batch. in college it was the first year that they admitted students through aieee ( more number of students inducted into the college from all over the country, rather than being state-wise which was followed for years, through an examination ). but when i said this to my colleagues they said coincidence. now this recession also with our batch , when we have jus passed out and begunu working, makes me wonder whether, everything happens just as coincidence :)
then there came a time when i had thought that this hope was a hope against hope hopen :)
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